Second day of Passover…on to the second symbol on the seder plate: zeroa, the lamb shank, which represents sacrifice. The zeroa symbolizes the Paschal lamb offered as the Passover sacrifice in the ancient Temple. Getting away from the idea of communal sacrifice, I am thinking about personal sacrifice now.
Thus, I ask myself: What will I sacrifice to create positive change in my life?
I must sacrifice some sleep! There never seem to be enough hours in the day to get everything done, so when I think about doing the work I want to do in the world and on myself to create change, I fear I will have to sacrifice sleep. (I am willing, however, to entertain the thought that I can create change in my life that allows for me to do all I want and need to do and still sleep 7-8 hours per night! I’d like to create that positive change in my life…truly!)
I might also have to sacrifice being at home as much. I might have to go out into the world more. I won’t be able to be a hermit. Neither will I be able to remain a bud; I’ll have to bloom for all the world to see.
I’m actually struggling as I write this with the idea of sacrifice. Once I got past the sleep part and wanting to change that thought, I decided that I’d rather have the thought that nothing had to be sacrificed to create positive change. Sacrifice carries such a negative connotation. I’d like to create change in my life in an easy and effortless manner.
The next question I ask myself is: What am I sacrificing in my life that I don’t want to be sacrificing?
This seems easier to answer. I don’t want to sacrifice sleep! I don’t want to sacrifice time away from my family or the things I enjoy doing.
Currently, I feel I am struggling to create change in my life—to become successful, to become more intuitive, to pursue a spiritual path, to improve my relationships—and each time I add something into my life, something gets sacrificed. I feel I’ve actually sacrificed a lot.
By putting so much time into my family, I’ve sacrificed my own pursuits—spirituality, metaphysics, personal growth, horseback riding, cycling, etc. This means I haven’t created the change I wanted personally and I’ve eliminated activities I love from my life. By focusing so much on doing what it takes to be a successful writer (promotion, marketing, etc.), I’ve sacrificed my writing and not finished the projects I started and in which I believed. In the process, I sacrificed some success as a writer. By focusing on earning a living rather than on fulfilling my life’s purpose, I have sacrificed a fulfilling career about which I feel passionate—and I’ve achieved less success.
Zeroa means “arm” in Hebrew, representing God’s “mighty hand and outstretched arm” that freed the Israelites’ from slavery. As I think about zeroa, therefore, I also ask myself: How do I see God’s hand at play in my life?
Ah….I see God’s hand at play in my life constantly. I see God’s hand in my life when an opportunity comes my way; I look back at my life and can understand with hindsight how events have brought me to this moment; a fortune cookie offers me the perfect fortune; a find myself in the right place at the right time; life seems to flow perfectly; words appear on paper magically; I find a flower blooming in my garden despite the fact I’ve left it untended; I see a rainbow when I feel hopeless; a hear good news; and oh, so many other times. I am constantly striving to see God’s hand in my life…and to reach out to hold it.
Again…your turn to answer the questions.